Late bloomer or dud, many things I ask myself, because I can't seem to stick to a story, like I should, if I should publish something.

It's not because I want to rant more then I should, it's one of journal posts you shouldn't make, while your tired(Writing this at 3 in the morning and jacked on 2 liters of cola, so I'm a little loopy).

I collect How To Draw, to see if I can try to understand doing comics better and do some that are good, but that isn't the correct way to do it. Why not?
Because the only way to make good comics, is first to make any comic and second, good or bad, you have done something that shows your able to, even if it's not worth a dime.
Some are good at it, right of the bat and I can't help being envious, it's not a bad thing, I acknowledge their talents and hard work, just seems to uses them as blocks then saying "I should try it that way" or "Hell, that's a funny idea, I should do that".

We have an artist, called Peter Snejbjerg, some might know him as the artist on Light Brigade or Detective 27 and I've trying to read his series Hypernauten. Kind of betting it's not in English, so no one outside Denmark(can't speak of other countries like Germany, just don't expect to been big outside of Denmark) have read it.
It's gotten high praises and should perhaps have it in my collection, but looking in it, I feel a little lost, not because of the story, but because I wanted to do something like a graphic novel, and don't know if I have it in me to do one.
Wouldn't be bad to have something that could make people proud of having or even like to have in their collection, but I'm not good at having such high expectations.

Other then the high and lows of being a doubting and when tired, depressed artist, can't say I should complain really. My personal life sucks many times, but at least I know my family will be there if something really bad happens, or so I hope and people on the net are very supporting, which surprises me many times and makes me happy. At times I feel like I owe them something, because without them, I don't know what I would have become.

Hope this moaning doesn't fill too much of peoples time, just wanted to vent a little, while I can't sleep. Don't have facebook and to be honest, I won't. I guessing there are some good things at using it, but seen how it can easily be abused, so it didn't have any selling points with me.